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Tout le monde dit que l'amour fait mal, ce qui est faux. La solitude fait mal. Se faire rejeter fait mal. Perdre quelqu'un fait mal. L'envie fait mal. Tout le monde confond ces petites choses avec l'amour,mais en réalité, l'amour est la seule chose dans ce monde qui fait fuir tout ce mal et qui te fait sentir si bien à nouveau.

Everyone says that love hurts, but they're wrong. Solitude hurts. Getting rejected hurts. Loosing someone hurts. Desire hurts. Everyone confuses theses small things with love, but in reality, love is the only thing in this world which chases alway all the hurt and makes you feel good again.

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1/3/01-1/7/01

I've been with him from Sunday to Thursday. Its Saturday now, early but still, Saturday. And I just feel worse than before. When I saw his car driving up to the train station, I was happy to see him. And when I saw him smiling and he opened the door and kissed me, all I could think was "YEEEEEESSSSSS."

We get to his house and he leans against the couch back and puts me in front of him and we look at each other and we kiss and ...

Fast forward to me leaving and I feel like and idiot for letting him back into my heart so much. I mean yeah, he wasn't gone all that much but still, I was getting better. I know he doesn't want to be with me if were so far away, and yes I get it. But I can't in good conscience keep talking to him and seeing him if he wont commit. Its not that he is afraid of commitment though, it's just that he doesn't like the distance.

No shit. Neither do I.

I would much rather have him close to me where I could keep an eye on him, and cuddle every night. But where we are at in our lives, doesn't allow that. I just feel like sometimes he thinks I'm not worth it and that's why he broke up with me. Which is of course ridiculous. Who wouldn't like me? I'm spunky, full of life, and I love having someone to take care of me, but who will also let me take care of them. That's what he was. I mean, I get guy friends telling me they like me [well I used to] so why can't I make the one guy I like happy? It makes me feel worthless as all hell.

New Years

I feel so pathetic.

I had gotten better with dealing with the fact that HE broke up with me. But it's 7 am on the 31st, I've been crying hopelesly for more than 2 hours. I don't wanna go out tonight but I need to.







I'm sorry for bothering you with this but I really wish you were here now.







I just don't understand why he did it. Like ok distance but why when it was so close to break. HELP ME. Xickshddjdk fjxjjzjOsogh I fucking hate this

Falala Lifetime

Deck the halls with boughs of holly, Fa la la la la, la la la la. Ties the season to be jolly, Fa la la la la, la la la la.

Don we now our gay apparel, Fa la la, la la la, la la la. Troll the ancient Yule tide carol, Fa la la la la, la la la la.

See the blazing Yule before us, Fa la la la la, la la la la. Strike the harp and join the chorus. Fa la la la la, la la la la.

Follow me in merry measure, Fa la la la la, la la la la. While I tell of Yule tide treasure, Fa la la la la, la la la la.

Fast away the old year passes, Fa la la la la, la la la la. Hail the new, ye lads and lasses, Fa la la la la, la la la la.

Sing we joyous, all together, Fa la la la la, la la la la. Heedless of the wind and weather, Fa la la la la, la la la la.

Faries

Farie Hollow is now a game for Nintendo D.S. If only I had my charger...

Admittance

I. LOVE. HIM. [warm attachment, enthusiasm, or devotion]

I feel like such a fool. I have given up my ways for him. I stay in much more this year. I guess that its not that much of a shock.
* At first I was out all of the time.
* Then I was only out some of the time.
* Now I go out none of the time.


I would love to give my heart to him. I would do it without a second thought if he asked. We even have the same blood type so I know he could take good care of it.



SAPPYYYYYYY

EnvironMENTAL

Read below to see what I should be working on instead of creating this post. Oh well, college is for learning! I guess that my essays are the one time that I can be creative during my college experience. Especially when I'm not entirely sure what I'm writing about... Oh well, try to enjoy. :)




In his book, Last Child in the Woods, Richard Louv inserts two different definitions of nature as defined by the nature poet Gary Snyder. One of those definitions is that “nature includes the material world and all of its objects and phenomena” (Louv 8), the other definition is “the outdoors” (Louv 8). According to Mr. Snyder’s first definition, everything that is made up of atoms is a part of nature, even if it isn’t found in a place that is untouched by humans. For his second definition, Mr. Snyder differentiates between what is man-made and what could be found in a place untouched by humans.
However, Mr. Louv’s own definition of nature is slightly different. He defines nature as a “natural wilderness: biodiversity, abundance-related loose parts in a backyard or a rugged mountain ridge” (Louv 8). In his definition Mr. Louv is being both more and less stringent than Mr. Snyder in his definition of nature. He is being more stringent in his definition because he is not including man-made items as a part of nature.
In his book, Louv gives the impression that “environment” should be defined as the circumstances, objects, or conditions by which one is surrounded, or where you happen to be in one moment of time. Obviously this means that your environment could change from one minute to the next, especially if you were to enter your house from the outdoors, or vice versa. “Wilderness” however is defined as an area of Earth which is untouched, uncultivated or uninhabited by man. Because humans are constantly trying to expand our control over nature, there are very few places that can still truly be considered wilderness.
In regards as to how each different definition’s interpretation is significant in regards to human-ecosystem interactions, it really depends on how much of the world you consider “nature” to encompass. If you do believe that man-made items are a part of “nature”, then it is very easy to understand that our actions have consequences on our ecosystem, even if they aren’t very immediate. Conversely, if you do not believe that “nature” encompasses items made by humans, then it is very hard to understand how our actions have potentially deadly effects on our ecosystem.
As Louv states, “Though we often see ourselves as separate from nature, humans are also part of that wilderness.” (Louv 9) Whenever we humans use the natural resources that we feel we are entitled to, such as marine life and the forests, we cause disastrous effects on the ecosystem if we do not regulate our usage of each of the many natural resources we use. Not only should we regulate our use of natural resources, we should also find a way to return our waste to the ecosystems in a way that would benefit the ecosystems instead of harming them as we are doing now.

Blargh. I hate this take home essay stuff. I'm in my NORTH VILLAGE living room listenign to the rain hit the roof. It is VERY unsettling to hear the rain strike the roof with such force, but I definately feel real cosy being up at this hour drinking plain old Lipton tea with milk and sugar talking to Jones and Em.